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Transforming Victim to Survivor

Posted on March 27, 2017 at 1:49 PM Comments comments (34)

You have the power to get out of the well one step at a time

The other day while doing some research I came across this fable which really spoke to my heart.

The Farmer’s Donkey

One day a farmer’s donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the
farmer tried to figure out a way to get him out. Finally he decided it was probably impossible and the animal was old and the well was dry anyway, so it just  wasn’t worth it to try and get the  donkey out. So the farmer asked his neighbors to come over and help him cover up the well. They all grabbed shovels and began to shovel dirt into the well.

At first when the donkey realized what was happening he cried horribly. Then, to everyone’s amazement he quieted down and let out some happy brays. A few shovels later, the farmer looked down the well to see what was happening and was astonished at what he saw. With every  shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was shaking it off and taking  a step up.

As the farmer’s neighbors continued to shovel  dirt on top of the donkey, he continued  to shake it off and take a step up.  Pretty soon to every one’s amazement the donkey stepped over the edge of the well and trotted off.


The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up

Each one of our troubles is a stepping stone

What happens to you isn’t nearly as important as how you react to it.

Author Unknown

How do you react to adversity? Do you become a victim or are you a survivor shaking adversity off?

Perhaps you don’t even realize you are playing the victim role.  For years, I played the victim role without being aware of it. The first step is awareness. Once you are aware that you are playing the victim role then you can take further action transforming from  victim to  survivor.

Signs that you are playing the victim role

Blaming others for your pain

I used to blame everyone and everything else for my pain and suffering – “ it’s not my fault  if only I had been raised by better parents”  in the long term those feelings led to feeling powerless and helpless.

Failure to accept responsibility

You have the power to choose how you react to adversity you can’t control the cards that are dealt to you in life but you can control how you play them.  Take responsibility for yourself. You alone decide how you react to adversity.

Feeling helpless

Find the source of your learned helplessness - most likely experienced in childhood or early adulthood.

I was raised in a dysfunctional environment that fostered dependence rather than confidence. 

Take some time to reflect and write on the source of your learned helplessness.

Focusing on problems

 The more you focus on a problem you will attract more of it into your life. Rather than focus on the problem search for solutions than will best work for you. You may need therapy or a coach to guide you with your journey.

Lack of boundaries

Learn to create and maintain healthy boundaries.

A boundary is a clear communication that respects yourself and others based on your values, rules and limitations.  One boundary that I have set for myself is not spend time with people who bring me down. I surround myself with positive people.


Victims tend to undermine or sabotage their own happiness and success. Control is the root of self-sabotage in victims.  Victims believe when things are going well that disaster is just around the corner. I would never allow myself to be happy for long periods of time as unconsciously I was sure disaster was not far off. I did not feel worthy of happiness. Brene  Brown  calls it  “deep foreboding”  disaster is always lurking around the corner and most intense when things are going well. Disaster is coming and the victim wants to be in control so when that disaster strikes he is prepared. The victim undermines his own joy and success with self-destructive behaviour.

Give up your need for control and focus on gratitude daily and enjoy all your blessings.

Keep a gratitude journal to write in about all the things you are grateful for.

Get out of your head space and participate in random acts of kindness. Helping another person/community will help empower yourself. The realization of the positive impact on another can positively influence your own life.

Lack of Self-Confidence

Victims tend to struggle with low self confidence.  Not everyone is born self-confident. Self-confidence can be learned and improved upon. Always dress and act confident eventually your internal state will catch up and begin to match your external state. Set up small achievable goals to work towards, your self-confidence will increase with each attained goal.

Forgiveness and Compassion

Finally, forgiveness is about you not your perpetrator. Forgiveness does not mean that you excuse the wrong.  It’s about your response to the pain inflicted on you. Transform the pain to compassion and empathy for the other. Find your inner strength to get past your pain to find inner peace and freedom so you may move on with your life.  Once you forgive healing can truly take place.  Don’t forget to forgive and have compassion for yourself as well.








Welcome 2016

Posted on January 4, 2016 at 2:59 PM Comments comments (32)

With a warm heart I welcome in 2016. 

The year 2015 was a year filled with change and challenges for me. I founded Chrysalis Healing & Coaching in the spring. A time for new beginnings for me and with enthusiasm I embraced the challenges of owning a business.

Along with those challenges 2015 also brought some personal challenges from my past that I had not completely dealt with.

For the first time in my life I was in severe physical pain.  I could barely walk the pain in my left hip and leg was so extreme.   The x-ray revealed arthritis, bursitis and tendonitis in my left hip and leg.  

The root cause of the symptoms - my deep hidden emotions from my past abuse had manifested into the physical and gotten into my bones.  I could no longer hide my anger, pain and shame.  The time had finally come to deal with the past abuse and my lack of self love.  

I decided to attack the deep pain from a variety of therapies so the pain would no longer have a place to hide. I underwent a combination of treatments- Reiki for both the physical and emotional, physiotherapy, acupuncture, shaman healing circles, journaling, art therapy, along with a major change in diet and lifestyle.

The result I feel so much better.  I am healing from the core inside to the outside. I am ready and willing to move forward with my life, 2016 Here I come!!!

 Foods that may increase your inflammation:

Dairy products


Nightshade plants such as tomatoes, peppers, eggplant

Fried Foods


Foods that help reduce your inflammation:

Olive Oil


Nuts- almonds. walnuts, sunflower seeds



Dark Chocolate 70% or higher

Green Tea





Moving Forward

Posted on October 27, 2015 at 2:31 PM Comments comments (19)
My body is tired, I am tired. Tired of all the pain I have endured in my life. Pain from my past. Deep physical and emotional pain stored away deeply hidden and rooted in my body.
I am tired of hiding, protecting and holding on to my past. I am tired of all the abuse I endured in my life- the physical, the emotional and the sexual. I am tired of blaming and holding myself responsible for all the abuse. I am tired of feeling ashamed of myself. I am tired of hiding behind masks.
I am tired of playing the victim role. I am tired of the sense of entitlement I felt is owed to me by the world because I was abused.
I am tired. My body is tired.
It is time to move forward with my life. Time to stop blaming myself and others  and move forward one step at a time.
I am now ready to free and release myself of the chains and masks of shame and fear I feel. I no longer need protecting from the outside world. I am ready to let go of the
I walk forward with confidence and my shoulders held up high.  I am no longer a victim in my life but a courageous strong  determined  successful  loving woman . 

Living a Passionate Life

Posted on May 6, 2015 at 4:59 PM Comments comments (20)
" Is what you are doing with your life worth the one life you have?"

A few weeks ago I attended a social networking event where the guest speaker Theresa Laurico asked us a very powerful and thought provoking question- "Is what you are doing with
your life worth the one life you have?"...

I had a chance to revisit this question recently when I was saddened to find out that a friend of mine's beloved pet had just passed away. She had just recently retired a few months ago and her pet was her life. I sympathized with her as just a few years ago I had to deal with the
grief and pain of the death of my beloved cat, Angel.

I was also very surprised to learn that she decided to go back to work at her old job which is not only physically demanding but also quite stressful. She said that she felt so lost and lonely without her pet that going back to her old job was the only solution for her in coping with her loss. It saddens me that she did not think that there might be other solutions for her, especially as she was never happy working there prior to retiring.

I offered other alternatives for her to explore such as volunteering or taking some courses but unfortunately her mind was already made up and she just wasn't open to anything new .
Some people are just not comfortable about making changes  especially  in the later stages of their life.

"Is what you are doing with your life worth the one life you have?" It is sad to see that sometimes people believe they can't try something new because of age or
fear of the unknown. (Please refer to my blog of April 7/15)

I am currently in the process of designing some workshops on New Beginnings pertaining to women dealing with transition in their lives such as divorce,  caught in the sandwich generation or dealing with empty nest syndrome. Stay tuned for details on these upcoming workshops. 

With the warmer weather here I will be facilitating a Women's Tea and Meditation Circle starting in June. The guided meditations will take place outdoors and will have different themes. Click on the Women's Tea and Meditation Circle on the home page for more information. Take a look and see which mediation appeals to you or  better yet join us for the series.

I strongly believe that what I'm doing with my life now is worth the precious one life I have to live.

How about you, do you believe what you are doing with your life is worth the one life you have? If the answer is no, than don't be afraid to try something new that you are passionate about. Life is too short to be doing something you are not  happy and passionate about.

Embracing Change: Transitioning from corporate world to a student

Posted on April 7, 2015 at 4:29 PM Comments comments (35)
April 7, 2015

Making a change in your life can be difficult, and stressful.

I was working in a corporate world mainly in the financial industry for 23 years when I knew I had to make a major change in my life. I was unhappy, extremely bored, frustrated and unfulfilled. I felt there was something lacking in my life.

When I was young and graduated from high school I did not know what I wanted out of life so
I got a job in the corporate world. Twenty three years later I was miserable and wanted something more meaningful out of life. I knew I needed a change in my life  but yet I was reluctant to do anything about it.

One of the things I regretted the most in my life was not going to university when I was younger. My sister kept encouraging and reminding me that it's never too late to make a change, go back to school and get a degree. But I was unwilling. I would make excuses to myself and to others . The most common were "I'm too old to go back to school-that time has passed" or "what give up my job security?" However the real underlying reason was FEAR, fear of making a change, fear of the unknown, and fear of failure.

Around the same time I was going through this turmoil I unexpectedly came across Reiki.

Through research I found out more about Reiki and learned that Reiki works on all  levels physical, emotional, mental and spiritual. I started receiving Reiki treatments along with Life Coaching sessions. Reiki  helped me gain self-confidence, raised my self-esteem and gave me the courage to face my fears, and pursue my dreams and goals.

With the combination of Reiki, Life Coaching and my own determination I left the corporate world and enrolled into a full time Bachelor of Arts Program Specializing in Psychology at York University.

I can honestly say those four years at York were one of the happiest times in my life. Sure I faced many challenges along the way. But it was also a very rewarding experience, not only did I obtain a degree but my thesis won an award for Excellence in Qualitative Research. However, I feel the best reward was intrinsic- the self-growth and transformation that had taken place inside of me.

What  about you? What are your dreams and goals? Remember it is never too late to make a change in you life. Don't let your fears confine and define you. Embrace change and challenge yourself to be all that you can be and transform your dreams and goals into a reality.

         "By changing nothing, nothing changes" -Tony Robbins